I need to be stronger

   I'm really, really sad right now :( I wanna cry..huhuhu I will all come to and end because Firdausi ( My Echoes Club advisor) is really pissed off.. Gosh! I didn't mean this would happen. I'm sorry. I should have defended on not to go ICRC tournament..I feel like I am cut into pieces.. huhuhu The moment I look at d massage that he send to me through FB I know something is wrong really wrong. He was using a lot of  '!' and capital letter... and now I'm feeling really, really bad and I wanna cry. I want Echoes Club to move froward and not backward but it was not to be..i wanna be good. I wanna be really good that when opponent see our name, they would think that we are not an easy target... I feel really, really embarrassed wen we loss every round with other university and there are opponent who said to us that they are against with a high school debating standard..Do you know how humiliating that is. How I want to die at that moment because i know what he is saying is really true. I want to cry at that moment but i know i can't. I know i have to be strong. Strong enough that i could lead Echoes Club to its once glorying name. I don't want it to die. I want Echoes to live again..and i know, to achieve this, it require a lot of hard work. Please, please, make me stronger to carry this responsibility.. I really need to be stronger :(