More and more each day, I begin to feel tired with my routine. I woke up then I do a little thing for myself like playing games or anything that interest me. Then in the middle of the day when I think I should start on doing my work, suddenly I was told or I just realise I got something to do. Thinking that I might have time to finish my work by the end of the day but sadly by the end of the day, I got so tired on what i was doing for the whole day that when I reach home all I want to do is sleep and rest my body and I never had the chance to actually sit and do my work. This really worries me a lot..huhu
That is one problem that I’m facing this holiday. Another problem is, I have so much to do, I don’t know which one to settle first or I do know which one is more important but how do you manage when everything that you are require to do, all have to be hand in the same week or the same day. Really exhausting! or maybe its just me.
Some people… no a lot of people tell me “you have to learn to prioritize” my respond was. I know! don’t you know I’m trying really freaking hard to do it. But of cause I don’t say it like that in front of them. Nanti sakit hati la pula.. Main point is I’m trying but my ‘trying’ is maybe not good enough for some people and I do feel that my ‘trying is not good enough’ Do know how depressing that feels? Gosh!
My head now is like a tangle web of spider. Even the spider web is not as tangle as my head. If they were, the spider will die in its own web. Seriously! and that is how tangle my head is. I have a lot to catch and do at the same time its like here and there stuff that is to be done. Wanted to seek for help from my friends but this thing that have to be done can only be done by me and no one else. This is so frustrating…
More and more, I feel like I’m losing myself. Seems like I don’t have enough time for myself. God grant us 24hrs a day to spend it and they say, its more then enough. But I say, 24hrs is not enough unless you’re a ‘bat’. Not a ‘bat’, a vampire more classy..hahaha but the kind of vampire that don’t sleep in the morning also. Then 24hrs is enough to do all that is needed to be done. But sorry to shatter all that beautiful dream of wanting to be come a vampire so that I could actually have enough time to finish my work because I’m a human being that need sleep and pretty much a fish and veggie eater then a blood sucker…hahaha
Gosh! merapu-rapu me in here..hahaha
Anyhow and anyway, I have to stop now. If I keep on complaining and pouring my heart out in this blog, the place ain’t big enough and my finger is not fit enough to type so many stuff in here. Then why the hell am I posting this then?
Hey they say its fun to write down your feelings sometime. Maybe I am doing it right now…
Thursday, 1 September 2011
A tangle web in my head.
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i really like the part of spider and bat there..hahaha.. is funny and interesting u know..
ReplyDeleteby the way, i can see the struggle u going through in your life with all the challenges and obstacles..
the way i see it, everything happen for a reason such as on how u end up in what u having now and how it going to prepare you for the future..
one thing i;m very sure of is that you are more experience than your usual friends cuz u know to do this and that..
imagine if you don't parcipate in anything of what you have now, for sure you know you have less thing to do but also less exposure and experience too..
what im trying to say here is, what happen in the present try cherish it and finish even though it don't seems easy and favorably cuz it going to be worth it when u recall it in the future as it taught u so many lessons through life.
Keep moving forward and believe you will do better in the future~